THE CRASH

 

Months ago (February, I believe) my finger was injured much more severely than I first thought… This is a very interesting incident. Yes, truly it was a unique and freak accident.

I was doing the normal thing of putting aways dishes in the early morning from the dishwasher (the dishwasher is right next to the single kitchen sink.) I wasn’t sleepy, but fully alert. I wasn’t careless. My hands and fingers were not wet (which could have been an explanation of this incident.) Simply, I was emptying the dishwasher as I normally and daily do. It is set up under one of the cupboards which contain bowls, large kitchen utensils, dog treats, and drinking glasses.

As I reached up to put away one of the final drinking glasses, it fell out of my hand. Not only was this a severe incident, but indeed, it was also bizarre. Very bizarre.

Selah.

This drinking glass, a short glass, smashed onto the very edge of the cupboard (this edge measures three-fourths of an inch.) When I say smashed, I cannot overexaggerate the terrible and menacing sound which was made… Here I must attempt to make it extremely understandable: the sound in itself was shocking! We’ve all broken things in our time, glass objects included. I was sixty-nine at this time, now seventy: no broken bones, no infirmities, no mental lapses. I am redeemed from every curse and strive to stay in divine health. God’s Word is true.

Selah.

But this sound and action was devilish. So devilish that I am asking for opinions from folk who know much about the occult!    You see, not only did this short drinking glass break; but it broke with the most unusual sound and force.

Which got me to thinking…
the instant smashing, intense and fierce loudness also was accompanied by a long detachment from the unbroken glass. At the damaging sound I was easily alerted to the break; my immediate scanning look went up to the glass I had been attempting to place on the shelf. The break was huge and it interested me very much that it was diagonal!

At the exact same time I was somehow able (another surprise to me) to look at my hand. I felt nothing, no pain. But there was a significant tear in my smallest finger.

Here is the key to my faith failure: I looked and immediately said, “Looks like I’m going to need stitches.” No big deal. But it is: it is not God’s best! And after all the traumas, horrors, hurts, and rejection Christ went through for me (for you) I was doubting him. I believed I needed stitches…

That is what hurts. I know everything God says is true…

Selah.

But, I called my son and told him I had a deep cut; I needed help.

 

FIRST DECISIONS

 

I did go to the emergency room: only because the bleeding wouldn’t stop immediately. Seven stitches started the healing process…  I thought that was pretty good considering, but a human physician, told me I might need surgery. I was pretty shocked.

When I was informed I definitely needed surgery (in the natural) I firmly decided that I would again type and crochet! Naturally, these lies came immediately from the kingdom of darkness: “You’ll never type again!” and equally, “You will never crochet again!” I stood firm: on my mission on Earth, I have to type and I need to crotchet for pleasure! I will be doing these things again and… until I go home to Heaven!

I am doing these things again! Praise God!

For a long time I had to wear a splint. Inconvenience with a good cause…  The first two or three days I had challenges because they used a ‘block’ for pain and my arm felt like a seventy-pound log! Actually, it was quite comical! Comical because it was necessary, very necessary; and I realized fully it was a great blessing (again: not as good as divine, immediate healing) an quite the challenge!

Selah.

My main ministries are my website: joyeternalministries.com and my books: two published (The Free Incarcerated Man and Joy Stories, Volume One), another one unpublished and more on the way.

 

WRONG WORDS…

 

As I said, the first failure I had was indeed saying, “Looks like I’m going to need stitches…”  So I did. Don’t get me wrong: I love real doctors, nurses, (real in the fact that they refuse to murder – including unborn fetuses) and all medical personnel: but they are God’s second best. Jesus, The Great Physician, is the First, the Last, the Beginning and the End. I hate to need help from the medical world because He is The Great Physician! And I am already healed! I want to receive what Jesus Christ freely gave!

 

NOTE:
The biblical word salvation does not only consist of my sins being forgiven and forgotten…  No salvation also includes provision and healing!

Selah
and amen!

 

Psalm 103:1-5
Praise the Lord, my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the Lord, my soul, and forget not all his benefits—who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

 

 

Isaiah 53:4-5
Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.

 

1 Peter 2:24
“He himself bore our sins” in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; “by his wounds you have been healed.”

 

I am ever aware Jesus took infirmities, curses, sicknesses, and sins; shedding His blood, buying me back from the father of lies. I don’t ever want to doubt, demean, or totally reject the depths of His suffering for my salvation to go unappreciated or unutilized.

Healing is in The Atonement:

 

Isaiah 53:4-5
Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.

 

Selah.

 

THERAPY

 

When my therapy was more than three-fourths completed, God reminded me of this true saying: “The facts are (and then I name them) but the truth is…”  This immensely helped me because I didn’t want to speak any symptoms to anyone… I know my words have the power of life and death. I remember Creflo Dollar telling us when he had a cancer report (many years ago) he only told two people.

Because I chose to go to a doctor, I also decided to do what they wanted me to. I do highly appreciate the true medical staff; but I know this is not His best. It is second best. He is the best! I hated to compromise my healing: the blood of Jesus, His sufferings, the healing Scriptures that tell me I only need Him when I am confident in my faith, the faith He had given me.

I was not…

Selah.

I couldn’t stop the bleeding. But then again, I can’t do anything without God. Yes, I had decided on medical help immediately because my faith applied lacked, I failed, not God. I didn’t believe my blood would stop without stitches. And stitches are what I chose. My next choice was to listen to the professional medical people. Each one (and there were many) were absolutely wonderful and a blessing for people who are impatient, wavering, or scared of damaging consequences..

My husband (a retired emergency room nurse) helped me remember the diagnosis. My right little finger had a complete lacerated tendon, also a partial one, and a lacerated small arterial. In the natural, without immediate divine healing, I needed help, a lot of help, months of help.

I failed to receive divine protection in the first place. In the second place I didn’t trust myself (never God!) to believe I was healed; just as if it had never happened.

I was a great disappointment to myself. I couldn’t believe the bleeding would stop with God and God alone. I’m sad.

I did forgive myself and I do move on.

Selah.

Before any of you think I’m nuts to believe medical people are God’s second best…  Let me tell you about my victories: my victories only because of God!

 

VICTORIES

 

Here is a list of just some of the healings I was able to immediately receive:

 

SEVERE CHEST PAINS
Once upon a time while driving home from my prison ministry. Suddenly, and seeming out of nowhere my chest had extreme pain. My first thought was, “I’m not going to have an accident and hurt anyone with my car!” I was mad! And that helped, as you will see with the next attack.

The pain subsided quickly. Yes! It was extreme and yes, it was real. But less than three minutes later, it started again. My reaction was still of absolute decision: I was not going to have a heart attack, chest pains, and die! All pain stopped and I drove on…

 

BACK PAIN
I was playing on the floor with my two little dogs many years ago. As I was on hands and knees, stretching forward; again, suddenly I felt a painful and sharp attack to my lower back on the right side. And again, I discounted it. It got better.

But the next day as I was bending down in the bedroom closet it came back stronger and harder this time. I felt a warmth in that part of my back and I heard a little ‘pop’.  I was madder this time. My thoughts were, “I’m not going to therapy! I’m not going to miss college (I was studying for my Bachelor of Theology degree) and I’m not taking time for this!

What did I do? I chose to scream… Yes! I screamed at the devil (or his minions because he can’t be everywhere at the same time – like God!) Friends, I didn’t even use Scripture, I didn’t even use Jesus’ name. I just told him / them “No!”

Honestly: the pain went from one hundred down to seven. AND: I almost saw that demon run down the hall in terror! In terror! I felt his terror of me! Satan knows who I am – and I know who he is! And I know my rights!

I did good that time! All glory to God!

 

BREAST CANCER
And then there’s the breast cancer attack. I noticed it, dealt with it, and threw it away by applying the blood of the Lamb and the word of my testimony. It should have been gone immediately. It took me a year: a year of symptoms no one knew about. No way was I going to keep breast cancer. And like Creflo, I watched who I told. I told no one. Duane might have wanted me to go to the doctor. I wasn’t about to. And I certainly wasn’t going to take chemo; I absolutely wasn’t going to contend with cancer. I had said this all my life; along with Multiple Sclerosis (like my Dad), other cancers (like my grandfather I never knew) and his daughter, my precious and ‘second’ mother, my Aunt Lulu, whom I am named after.

I told Duane and others after all symptoms were gone. I knew I wouldn’t own this lie from Satan, the father of lies!

 

VOMIT
Then there was the time I was going to work in just two minutes…  This was about ten to fifteen years ago. All of a sudden that horrible feeling of vomiting came upon me. Not going to have it! Didn’t have to have it!! I rebuked it in Jesus’ name and went to work. First, however, just as I was opening the kitchen door to leave, it tried coming back. Big surprise! I repeated the same biblical right and walked out the door.

 

I am not God. This is a very wonderful truth to believe and claim!

Selah!

However, God has given me authority, dominion, and even glory! Jesus gave me the same glory His Father gave Him! This, I want you to find in the Bible for yourself; and, never forget this!

Selah.

 

HUMOR
I am going to end this Joy Story with humor!

Why? Because, although I didn’t immediately win the victory, I knew I would and could. Why? Only because of God Almighty!

The therapists (I had three, depending on the day and their availabilities) wouldn’t let me do many things…  I acquiesced to their professional authority by my own volition. Considering I didn’t trust myself to receive immediate divine healing, I settled.

 

NOTE:
I settled for professional medical people. This sounds cold; it is not. God is far above the best of the best person in any category, in any profession. He is omnipresent, omniscient, omnipotent. We are His created.

Selah.

 

Here are a few things I was told not to do:

• Use a knife
• Grasp anything tightly
• No pushing, no pulling
• Lift heavy things
• Brush the dog
• Snap on the dog’s harness
• Vacuum

 

My second-best friend, my husband and former emergency room nurse, cut my meat for me. Fortunately, I was able to eat with my left hand pretty well. Good for me! And for him!!

He changed the cat litter for me weekly and took it out to the trash. I never mind caring for my fur babies, in fact, I love to; but it wouldn’t been good at this point.

Duane had to brush Tina, our terrier mix; she requires a strong brushing because her fur is like beautiful silk! Pewter, our Russian Blue cat has short fur, so I could easily manager her!

He vacuumed weekly for me! This was the best part of obeying the professionals! It began a regular celebration at my therapy sessions; still not allowed! Wahoo!

All glory to God,
Here are a few things I was still able to do:

• Put on my lipstick liner with my left hand
• Put on all my makeup except mascara
• Take care of the trash
• Clean the house

At my tender age of sixty-nine (then) I was ever so thankful to be able to put on my lip liner before my lipstick. It’s quite a routine! First foundation, then loose powder, the lip liner (which must identify well with my lipstick!) Then, more loose powder, another coat of lip liner…  Finally the lipstick, which would stay on quite well until I ate something… My lips are so used to lipstick, I need also as a moisturizer. And, I love it!!

Also, I could us all of my makeup except eyeshadow (actually, I just didn’t bother with it) and mascara. Mascara would have had to have been with only my left hand because I had a splint for quite a long time. Very awkward.

I was more than able to still clean house (other than vacuuming) – it just took way, way longer. Still, I was content! Chose to be! You should have seen me trying (and doing!) to put the clean mop pad on the mop!

Selah.

 

THE FINAL OUTCOME

 

Satan can’t keep me down. I believe God and it is credited to me as righteousness. Friends, only a fool hates God!

I am typing fully now (had to start back slowly, very slowly) and I am crocheting again too! When my great-granddaughter turns four I’ll be gifting her with a myriad of crochet toy foods: pizza slices, toast, lattes, cupcakes, and more! Her Auntie Breanna got these gifts from me when she was a little child; she remembers! She got a hot dog; and like she said, it wasn’t just a hot dog! It was a Chicago dog with pickles, peppers, cheese… I do love to crochet. Satan would have loved to put an end to that! I love telling that deceiver, “No!”

All in all: I made a huge mistake in this breaking glass in saying, “Looks like I’m going to need stiches..”

I hope you believe how important, how critical your words are! Your words have the power of life and death:

 

Proverbs 18:21
The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.

I also hope you believe how important your faith is:

 

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

 

I hope and pray you have victories over your failings, the people who hate God, and Satan and his kingdom! This is where you start:

 

Dear God,

I surrender to you now, right now. I am done in trying to invent a working lifestyle without you. I humble myself and call out to You. I’m done with lying, with pretending, and explaining away ungodliness…

 

Romans 1:18-21
The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of people, who suppress the truth by their wickedness, since what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them.  For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse.  For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened.

 

God in Heaven,

I come to You in the name of Your only begotten Son, Jesus. I have sinned. I now believe and know that Jesus is fully God, fully Man. He lived a sinless life and took all of my sickness and infirmities in His body. He died on the cross for my sins. I believe and know that He was raised from the dead so I might be saved from Hell and have eternal life in Your Kingdom with you forevermore.

Jesus, I ask you to be my only Lord and Savior. Please forgive me of my sins and wash them away with Your holy blood; never to be remembered again. Please take my sickness or any health issue I have by the stripes You endured for all mankind…

I will now strive to live my life for You to my best ability and with the help of You, Holy Spirit, I strive to seek You, study You and worship You all the days of my life, which are forever, amen!

I denounce Satan and his kingdom now and forevermore!

I also ask to be baptized in You, Holy Spirit, with the evidence of this by praying in other tongues, my heavenly language.

(To receive your heavenly language – take it by faith – just as you receive Jesus as your Lord and Savior. Simply start speaking syllables – do not say anything in your known language/s. It WILL come – just believe. Satan will tell you it is false – never listen to the father of lies. Pray in tongues every day!)

Thank You, God, for forgiving me, cleansing me, healing me in every way, staying with me and praying with me.

In Jesus name, I pray this, amen.

 

 

SCRIPTURAL TRUTHS:

 

Romans 3:21-26
But now apart from the law the righteousness of God has been made known, to which the Law and the Prophets testify. This righteousness is given through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference between Jew and Gentile, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. God presented Christ as a sacrifice of atonement, through the shedding of his blood—to be received by faith. He did this to demonstrate his righteousness, because in his forbearance he had left the sins committed beforehand unpunished—he did it to demonstrate his righteousness at the present time, so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith in Jesus.

 

Philippians 2:12-13
Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling,  for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.

 

Isaiah 53:4-5
Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.

 

1 Peter 2:24
“He himself bore our sins” in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; “by his wounds you have been healed.”

 

Ephesians 2:8-9
For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast.

 

Romans 10:9-10
But what does it say? “The word is near you, in your mouth and in your heart” (that is, the word of faith which we preach):  that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.

 

Acts 2:4
And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.

 

1 Corinthians 14:2
For anyone who speaks in a tongue does not speak to people but to God. Indeed, no one understands them; they utter mysteries by the Spirit.

 

DO NOT BE DECEIVED! You must continue your relationship as a child of God!
Live this way:

 

2 Timothy 4:7-8
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day-and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.

 

Hebrews 3:14
We have come to share in Christ if we hold firmly till the end the confidence we had at first.

 

Revelation 3:5
He who overcomes will, like them, be dressed in white. I will never blot out his name from the book of life, but will acknowledge his name before my Father and his angels.

 

This is how you finish:

 

Revelation 12:11
They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.